Day 206: Finding my 80/20 balance

I have been failing at this whole life balance business. You know, the main reason I started this blog. I feel like the last few months have consisted of me trying to be super strict with my eating only to fall off the wagon and spiral into a pizza coma. I was planning to start another Whole 30 tomorrow, but after some soul searching, and the friendly reminder that I had this blog, (yes, I know, I never actually had that comeback that I wrote about on Day 144) I decided that I really need to focus on finding balance.

What does balance mean to me? That is a tough question, and one that I'm not sure I can really answer right now. My idea of balance is that I am really living a healthy lifestyle 80% of the time, but with some indulgence here and there. Let's talk about healthy. I think most people have their own definition, so for me, when I think of being healthy, I think of someone who carves out time to be active every day. To me, being healthy means that I have a good relationship with food, and that most of the time I am filling my body with fruits and veggies, lean proteins, and staying away from things like bread and pasta, cookies, and my beloved pizza.

Yesterday was JeazyE's birthday, and some of his nearest and dearest came to Miami to surprise him for the weekend. Ashley, who I haven't seen in forever, asked if they could have a cameo on my blog.....I immediately felt guilty about the fact that I have been the WORST blogger in history. Kathy and I had some great conversations about life and finding our balance in relationships, and within ourselves. She is embarking on a healthy living lifestyle in this next month, and so I jumped at the chance to join her and have someone hold me accountable. Spending time with these girls this weekend was a reminder to me that while we are constantly trying to better ourselves, we also have to learn to love who we are, just as we are, right here and right now. I love that Ashley reads my blog, and it is a reminder that there are so many people out there on similar journeys who I may not hear from everyday. I won't promise that I will write every day, or even every week for that matter (we have seen how far that has gotten me so far in this journey!), but I will promise that I will remember that I made a commitment to myself on January 5th, and that I am going to continue to TRY to honor that commitment.

So what exactly am I trying to say? I am trying to find my balance, but I need my village to support me in my journey! I have NEVER been a morning person, just ask any of my former roommates (looking at you, Megan Kuhn!!), but I know that working out in the morning is not only a great way to start out the day, it is the only way I can honestly commit to being active everyday. My life can be crazy, between work, other professional commitments, testing out the dating waters again (awkward first dates galore!), my evenings are pretty unpredictable. My girl Kathy has committed to calling me at 5:50 AM to make sure my @$% is up (anyone up at that time, please CALL me or send me a guilt text!!!!!). I am also really trying to evaluate my eating. But I am going to take this day by day. I am going to start logging my food again, so I can look at what I am putting in my body, and may have a food diary reveal at the end of the week. Bottom line, please continue to encourage me. Please, if you have any words of wisdom, in how you have found your balance in this crazy world, LET ME KNOW!

Sara